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The Quiet Room

Title: The Quiet Room
Rating: R
Couplings: (please to note that not all of these are ships) Gwen/Owen, Ianto/Tosh, Ianto/Jack, Ianto/Gwen/Jack
Summary: "Inside this room, no one talks," Ianto said, his voice carefully neutral. "It isn't allowed. What goes on here stays here and, outside of it, never happened. Other than that there are no rules, in a manner of speaking."
Author's Notes: This was written in response to [livejournal.com profile] exuberantself, who said here: Personally, I "believe" that there is a reasonably large room in the back end of the Hub where there is nothing but a lamp and a very nice bed. Inside the room, no one speaks and there are no consequences. At the end of a particularly trying day, the members of Torchwood Cardiff, in whole or part, go to it. This does not follow the details of the rest precisely, but does chase the spirit of the thing.
Warnings: Infidelity; quasi-public sex.

Now a podfic by [livejournal.com profile] filthgoblin! Also this fic inspired an Avengers fic, The Room Of Requirement.

Also available at AO3.

Originally posted 10.7.08

***

"Jack said I ought to do this part," Ianto Jones said to Gwen, as they walked down a dim, slightly damp cement hallway off the main Hub.

His voice sounded strange, tagged by an echo. Until now he hadn't really pinged Gwen's radar much. He was a shadow in the background, an odd aberration -- butler to the alien-hunters -- but nothing she had to pay much mind to. When Captain Jack was in the room he took up a lot of attention, and what was left over she'd spent on studying Suzie (second in command, after all, and after that, well, suicidal) and Owen (dangerously sarcastic) and Toshiko (terrifyingly intellectual). Now that she'd had the first-day tour of the upper levels, however, Jack had passed her to Ianto and Ianto had processed her paperwork briskly before telling her there were one or two things left to explain.

"He says I'm tactful," Ianto continued, considering it. "I'm not certain where he drew that illusion, but I suppose in comparison everyone is. Ah. Shower room," he added, stepping through an open doorway. Rusty lockers stood along one wall. Four of them bore initials: JH, TS, OH (with "mama" scrawled crudely underneath), IJ. If Suzie had a locker it had already been cleared out, she guessed. Probably by the efficient Ianto Jones.

"We don't fuss overmuch about modesty. Especially if one's clothes are being eaten by corrosive excretion, or on fire," Ianto said.

"On fire? Does that happen often?"

"Owen, once," Ianto replied, looking as if he were savouring the memory. "In the general course of things, barring chemicals or pyrotechnics, we simply turn our heads. Women shower down there, men down here," he continued, pointing to two separate cubicles, six showerheads each, divided by a cement wall. Various soaps and shampoos adorned shelves nearby. "This way..."

She followed him out of the locker-room again, continuing deeper, further away from the atrium of the Hub. The hallway widened and then abruptly ended in a doorway. Ianto leaned in the frame and reached inside briefly, flicking on a light.

"This is the Quiet Room," he said, his body blocking the entry just enough to keep her from walking inside. She could see it clearly, though: a long sofa, two elderly wing-back chairs, a floor lamp...and a large bed, neatly made, with a nightstand next to it.

"For kipping overnight?" she asked.

"Among other things. It's a sort of...safety valve, I suppose one would call it. Inside this room, no one talks," Ianto said, his voice carefully neutral. "It isn't allowed. What goes on here stays here and, outside of it, never happened. Other than that there are no rules, in a manner of speaking."

Gwen looked up at him, confused.

"Sleeping, reading, a meal away from the atrium...sex," he said with a shrug. "No one is ever barred from the room. While it's an informal unwritten arrangement, the Captain is always available here."

"What?"

"Surely that's not what startles you?" he asked. "You've met Jack."

"No, the whole -- sex?"

"No-one else knows what you do. No-one else will ever understand as fully as Torchwood does -- "

"I have a boyfriend!"

"Not in this room," Ianto said quietly. "Not if you don't want to."

"That's mad."

"Welcome to Torchwood."

"Was this Jack's invention then? Is that the sort of place -- "

"No. Shocking, I know," he said drily. "It was instituted sometime in the forties, I believe; the decor's been updated since." He turned to her. "You'll understand, PC Cooper. If you don't care to come here, nobody will force you. Owen and Suzie do -- did, I suppose -- sometimes. Tosh sleeps here perhaps two nights a week. No one bothers her when she does. I think sometimes Jack comes and sits with her, nothing more."

"But..." Gwen gestured at it.

"There must be a place to go when there isn't anyplace to go," Ianto said firmly. Gwen stared into the homey little room, with the handful of paperback novels strewn over the nightstand and the blanket on the back of the sofa. Chairs, bed, lamp...

"Do you ever come here?" Gwen asked curiously.

"No. I don't have the same requirements you do," Ianto replied. He pushed away from the entrance and shoved his hands in his pockets. "I don't go into the field. On the rare occasions the field comes to us, I'm generally shoved behind something heavy and told to sit still."

He gave her a small smile.

"Don't let it bother you. All you need to know is that it's there," he said, and began walking back down the corridor.

***

A month and a half later, Lisa Hallett's steel-encrusted body was being incinerated by Owen while Ianto slept, heavily sedated, in the Quiet Room. Gwen came down to see and found Jack sitting in one of the chairs, watching over him. She opened her mouth and Jack shook his head sharply.

There were footsteps in the hall and Tosh brushed past her into the room without a second thought. She shot a glance at Jack and took off her shoes neatly before lying down on the bed, curling herself around Ianto protectively.

When Gwen checked again in the morning, they were gone.

***

Three months later, maybe four, Gwen found herself in the Quiet Room, clean and warm for what felt like the first time in days, with fresh bandages on the bird-shot wounds in her hip. She had her head on Jack's shoulder and his arm was cradling her; Owen was pressed up against her other side, looking sullen and exhausted. Ianto was lying on the bed again, the white bandage on his face luminous under the lamp, a bruise still darkening on his forehead. His eyes, wide and hugely dilated, flicked slowly back and forth from Jack to her to Owen. Tosh, this time, was in his arms, face pressed tightly against his collarbone.

Sometime before she went home to Rhys, sometime before she left Rhys again and found Owen in a place they could talk and shout and make noise, Tosh's shivering stilled and Ianto's hands began to move. There was a soft moan -- she thought Ianto.

She turned her head and buried it in Jack's coat. He laughed softly and gently turned her back, a silent command to look.

It was clumsy, fumbling, incautious but slow, and Gwen thought she would be embarrassed to see it but she wasn't. Ianto was holding desperately tight, Tosh squirming against him, their hips moving in time, most of their clothing still on. It was oddly -- vital, some kind of desperate act to prove to the world they were still alive. Owen touched her hand and then gripped it tightly, but otherwise he didn't move. When she looked at Jack's face he was watching with impassive gravity. Witnessing it.

None of them spoke, not even Ianto when he arched and gasped, not even Tosh when she shuddered against him. And when it was done Jack stood and stroked Tosh's hair once and kissed Ianto on the forehead and left.

***

Gwen and Owen never went there during the brief few weeks of the affair. There was no way they would have been able to separate the sex they had from the life they led, and that was a hard and fast rule she had already learned well.

***

When Jack left them for the Doctor, Owen and Ianto disappeared soon after. Eventually Tosh came running to get Gwen and dragged her down to the Quiet Room and they stood in the doorway and watched.

Ianto and Owen were fighting -- dirty, bloody fighting, neither of them saying a word or even making a noise. Owen was much better at it but Ianto had a blind fury on his side that was evening the odds, plus he had height and reach on Owen and Owen had recently been shot. Neither woman was particularly surprised when Ianto finally wrestled him onto the bed, a hand on each wrist to keep them still, and simply held him there.

During the fight Gwen thought Ianto might have been compelled to expend all that energy. Looking at Owen, struggling and crying at the same time, she realised it wasn't Ianto who needed it that day at all.

***

The Toclafane got Gwen last. They found her in the Quiet Room, and as she fired round after round of useless bullets they taunted her. It was the first time she'd ever heard anyone speak in that room.

***

The morning after Jack came back, when they were finally safe to come into the Hub again, Gwen went down to the locker room to fetch a compact mirror from her locker. She hadn't even opened it when she heard a soft noise echoing down the hall.

Ianto and Jack were in the bed in the Quiet Room, tangled together, naked, the blankets twisted and half-discarded. Jack opened his eyes when he saw her and raised his eyebrows with a grin, an invitation. Gwen laughed and shook her head.

Jack tipped his shoulders in a shrug -- too bad, could have been fun -- and kissed Ianto's jaw as he slept.

***

Gwen once found Jack sitting crosslegged on the bed, a rare drink in one hand, sifting through old photographs. He couldn't tell her the stories, but he was in each of them -- here with an arm around a young soldier's waist, there in a suit with a bride standing behind him.

She did laugh at one that showed him and two lithe, acrobatic-looking men in leotards.

***

The day after Tosh and Owen died, she found Ianto asleep on the couch in the Quiet Room at the same time Jack came looking for him. Jack bent and woke him gently, silently, and kissed him. This time, when he looked over his shoulder at Gwen, she nodded and stepped inside the room.

She didn't regret it for a moment. When the sting of death had faded a little, she even had fond memories of being warmed by their bodies, cradled protectively between the two men.

***

"Did..." said the new medic, on his second day at Torchwood, looking at her seriously and a little fearfully when she asked him if he had any questions. "Did Ianto show you the...room down there?"

"The Quiet Room?" she asked.

"Is it a joke? It seems like the kind of joke he'd pull."

She gave him a reassuring smile. "You'll understand when you need to."

END

[identity profile] skellerbvvt.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 04:44 am (UTC)(link)
I'm just going to take a suitcase and move into this fic. Don't mind me. I'm going to bunker down in between the first and second part. Won't even notice I'm there.

[personal profile] jo02 2008-10-14 12:24 am (UTC)(link)
I'll notice you're there, because I packed and moved in too.

I'm sure there's enough room in here for everybody who thought this fic was more beautiful than they could put into words.

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[identity profile] iamshadow.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 04:45 am (UTC)(link)
I love this. You've captured here something that I aimed for when I wrote a HP story for a fest earlier in the year. It has the same feel, to me; that intimacy, whether it's fighting or sex or just comfort, all the while overshadowed by the danger they're in.

I wish I could express better what I feel about this piece, but after three rereads I think I'll have to leave it at that.

A continuity thing - there are three references to Suzie in that first scene. The first and the third sound as though she is still alive and around, but the second says, "If Suzie had a locker it had already been cleared out, she guessed." I admit, I've only seen the pilot once, and quite some time ago. If this is all right and correct, fair enough.

[identity profile] sam-storyteller.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 01:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I looked at those Suzie bits this morning and was like...oops. I'm not sure how to alter the first one, but the reference Ianto makes I can fix. :) Glad you enjoyed it!

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[identity profile] wellowned.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 04:54 am (UTC)(link)
oh, that's kinda awesome. the concept of a quiet room, i mean. the execution is fabulous, sam. but the idea of it is magnificent, too.

[identity profile] sam-storyteller.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 12:59 pm (UTC)(link)
I can't take credit for the idea, that was all [livejournal.com profile] exuberantself :) Glad you enjoyed it!

[identity profile] antelope-writes.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 04:58 am (UTC)(link)
As always, thank you.
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[identity profile] editrx.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 05:09 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, thank you, Sam. So good to see another wonderful, insightful story from you.

[personal profile] jo02 2008-10-08 05:10 am (UTC)(link)
When I saw that piece about canon and fanon the other day, the exact part you quoted stuck with me for the rest of the day. There was just something so - nice - about it that I wanted to see what it would look like for 'real'.

Thank you for doing this so wonderfully!
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[personal profile] the_rainbow_jen 2008-10-08 05:41 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, but I like this. It fits in the background of how they all stayed sane through some of those messes.

Out of curiosity, and because I'm dying for some good DW/TW fic, do you know of anyone else who addressed The Year That Never Was with the TW crew? I love those kinds of stories :)

[identity profile] sam-storyteller.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 12:59 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't generally read Year That Never Was fics -- there aren't many of them written, and those that exist are often about Jack witnessing the slow, painful deaths of his team.

The one I do have in my bookmarks currently is a Iantocentric story called Paradox (http://tbb.destinysgarden.net/submissions/22_paradox.html), about Ianto escaping the Toclafane and hiding out in the deep heart of the Hub. I -- am not sure that I liked it, and I found the ending deeply disappointing, but I also found points in it very interesting and the idea is quite captivating. Plus there's some lovely worldbuilding with the Hub.

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[identity profile] misswinterhill.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 07:41 am (UTC)(link)
This is just beautiful. Understated but heartfelt and touching. Thanks for posting it up :)

[identity profile] kittiword.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 08:31 am (UTC)(link)
I don't know what to say other than I love it, its very quiet and subtle and I... am oddly comforted by this piece.

Thankyou for posting it.

[identity profile] pavlovlita.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 08:35 am (UTC)(link)
Every part with Owen and Tosh its heartbreaking. And Ianto and Tosh so perfect. I love every part of it. But lastly, Gwen. Somehow you managed to portray the Gwen-as-the-human-heart-of-Torchwood that the actual show never did.

[identity profile] sam-storyteller.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 12:56 pm (UTC)(link)
I think the trick is to show Gwen as part of Torchwood -- you can't, at first, of course, but by the time Countrycide rolls around she's not an outsider anymore, even if the writers treat her like one. To be the heart you have to be a part of the body, after all :)

[identity profile] libbyalice.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 08:50 am (UTC)(link)
Oh that's nice
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[personal profile] such_heights 2008-10-08 10:42 am (UTC)(link)
This is absolutely perfect - I love Gwen in this, so much, and both the idea and execution are marvellous. That snippet of the Toclafane is chilling.

[identity profile] thessalian.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 10:46 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you. It's been a hard week thus far, the stress is eating me, and I needed a room like this to escape to. Thank you for providing such a well-created one.

[identity profile] sam-storyteller.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 12:53 pm (UTC)(link)
You and me both, right? :D

[identity profile] bittervillager.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 12:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you for this. It's a nice antidote to all the vampire theory I've been reading this morning.

Still planning on the conference?

[identity profile] sam-storyteller.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 12:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Glad you enjoyed it!

Vampire theory! Sounds either fun or harrowing, depending.

Conference?

[identity profile] exuberantself.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 01:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Okay, I thought that I'd be capable of of a coherent comment after a good night's sleep, but...I was wrong.

I think the best part is that it's Ianto who gives the tour of the lower levels and presents the room to newbies--even though he's never used it when Gwen joins, he recognizes, not only the importance, but the sanctity of the room, and presents it with a respect that none of the others could have managed so smoothly. I feel like that's what makes the idea work, actually: it's not a place for a torrid affair (the way Gwen and Owen consciously don't fool around there), it's a safety zone and catharsis.

I don't have a favorite part, but if I did it would have to be the fight between Owen and Ianto because it's out of the range of what I had originally imagined, but fits so perfectly that I'm almost annoyed I didn't think of it.

And then there's the progression...the way we follow Gwen and Ianto's personal journeys with such subtlety, and the stylistic analogy with the way the clips become shorter and sweeter but more powerful.

Oh? Last point! The conversational bookends, with no dialogue even in the situations where it would have existed. It definitely adds to the feeling of its importance to our team, like it's equal parts church and cemetary for them.

In summary, wow. In all seriousness, thanks for writing this; it's beautiful.

[identity profile] sam-storyteller.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 01:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, can you imagine Jack trying to explain the room to Gwen, or Owen doing it? Tosh wouldn't even be able to get the words out, and Gwen would think it was just a room for "kipping overnight" :D Ianto's the only one who would give her the FULL story -- the sex AND the Katharsis.

I think Owen and Ianto fighting was probably a shock to everyone involved, because that's certainly now how the room is supposed to be used. But it does work because it's still them looking for something. Shame that bit is so short, I totally have it set up in my head how it would be -- Ianto would want to come to the Quiet Room for a bit of peace and perhaps a good cry, but Owen is already there and blocks him entry. Ianto knows NOBODY can be banned from the room, which is when he realises what Owen's asking for, and shoves him hard to force his way in. Cue battle. :)

[identity profile] sanginmychains.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 03:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Wow, so evocative. The Ianto/Owen section was especially interesting; one gets the sense that their 'best enemies' relationship is a deep and very attached one.

[identity profile] naturelf.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 03:37 pm (UTC)(link)
On the rare occasions the field comes to us, I'm generally shoved behind something heavy and told to sit still

Oh, Ianto.

Top form as always, Sam.

[identity profile] sam-storyteller.livejournal.com 2008-10-09 12:59 pm (UTC)(link)
I love the idea of something invading the Hub and Jack just shoving Ianto under a table and telling him to stay there. :D

[identity profile] dyingfire.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 04:07 pm (UTC)(link)
This fic is so awesome there are no words. Yes to Ianto and Owen fighting in the Quiet Room. I'm amazed no one really thought to expand on this idea. It's so CANON why isn't it in the subtext of Torchwood? All that they experience has to be a psychological drain to them. They can have an episode about Gwen finding out about Jack's "Orphanage" and telling the boy's mom that he's not dead, but the Rift brought him back changed. Why is there no room for this?!

[identity profile] sam-storyteller.livejournal.com 2008-10-09 12:59 pm (UTC)(link)
There are a lot of interesting fics out there that do deal with how they cope, actually, though most of them aren't linked to an architectural facet. I think it makes it more, AHAHAHA, concrete when there's a room involved. :D

[identity profile] quean-of-swords.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 05:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Very much so, yes.

And I need to catch up on my Torchwood. *sigh*

[identity profile] emmelinep.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 05:34 pm (UTC)(link)
i read this yesterday and thought, hmmm, this is interesting.

and then i've been thinking abou it for the past day and i thought about this story until i had to come back and read it.

and all i can say is that its fantastic. fantastic and brilliant.

[identity profile] sam-storyteller.livejournal.com 2008-10-09 12:57 pm (UTC)(link)
LOL, that was exactly the same reaction I had to [livejournal.com profile] exuberantself's original post about it!

[identity profile] 42footprints.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 06:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Sam, that's beautiful. You write Gwen better than almost anyone else I know. This is a perfect idea, and your execution is as sharp and moving as ever. Glad to know you can still write with all the citrusy roach death and other traumas in your life :)

[identity profile] turnonmyheels.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 06:21 pm (UTC)(link)
beautiful and melancholy and just right

[identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_bettina_/ 2008-10-08 06:46 pm (UTC)(link)
This was fabulous!

[identity profile] virginhuntress.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 07:25 pm (UTC)(link)
This... this made me cry.

At first I wasn't sure why, but then I re-read it and I understood so much more. The story isn't just about what happens in this room, it's about coming full circle. The story starts with Gwen and her reaction, and ends with her passing the torch to the next person in the family. It's about a loss of ignorance, and that goes hand in hand with a loss of innocence, which is always heart-breaking.

I love how much it invokes a feeling of Torchwood as a family and not just co-workers. They live together, eat together and sometimes, they die together too. It's hard and they get each other through it.

It's a beautiful story, and I wish with all my heart it was part of canon. *mems, of course*

[identity profile] sam-storyteller.livejournal.com 2008-10-09 12:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you :) There's no better compliment to be given than that the story caused a reaction -- it's what I'm always searching for, anyway. I'm glad you enjoyed it.
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[identity profile] tetsubinatu.livejournal.com 2008-10-08 10:38 pm (UTC)(link)
I've just realised why I can't take Ianto seriously. It's because of his ski-jump of a nose. *sigh* Who knew I was so shallow...

Nice fic though! For once I didn't want to swat Gwen upside the head.

[identity profile] sam-storyteller.livejournal.com 2008-10-09 12:56 pm (UTC)(link)
ROFL! I rather like his nose.

For once I didn't want to swat Gwen upside the head.

Surprisingly, neither did I.

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